Lent 01: lend me Your strength // Psalm 119:25-32.

I struggle to pray, not just today, but everyday.

It is impossible to stay on the path of holiness unless I have the enabling grace of God; and yet so often I depend on my strength to become strong in God – what a tragic paradox. Perhaps my carnality compels me to do that instinctively because I do not understand the grace of God intimately and experientially.

The psalmist beckons me to depend on God to:

  1. Give me life
  2. Teach me His statutes
  3. Make me understand
  4. Strengthen me
  5. Put false ways far from me
  6. Teach me His law
  7. Let me not be put to shame, and
  8. Enlarge my heart

Perhaps this is only possible if I:

  1. Tell Him my ways
  2. Meditate on His works
  3. Choose the way of faithfulness
  4. Set His rules before me
  5. Cling to His testimonies
  6. Run in the way of His commandments

Holy Spirit, please help me to quicken my spiritual senses; I need You to help me pray unceasingly. I desire to seek the Lord before I embark on every task so that I can regularly reorientate my focus. I boldly ask You to help me by reminding me, so that I may respond by remembering to pray, and eventually relying on You becomes a required routine of my life.

***

No Facebook, Twitter and Instagram? No problem. No Football Manager? No problem. No unedifying words? No problem. No air-conditioning? No problem. No meat, sugar, snacks and tidbits? No problem. But no morning coffee? Oh I felt its absence as early as the second hour into the lecture.

I have three lists: start doing, stop doing and still doing. It’s easy to stop, hard to start but hardest to be consistent.

I know it’s only the first day, but I’m ultra-Sanguine about what I want to achieve and I need the Lord to still my heart in pacing myself. Am I disappointed because I failed to do what I had set out to do today? Perhaps. But what I want to be disappointed about is that I didn’t, couldn’t and haven’t met Christ today. I am reminded that it’s not about accomplishments for Christ but about alignment to Christ.

God is faithful – what I had contemplated upon this past week was confirmed in the first lecture on spiritual direction; I am certain that my maiden Quadregesima will alter my spiritual life forever. I go to bed tonight with a plethora of expectations soaked in optimism but littered with potentially prideful intentions. Oh may the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart be pleasing unto You, O Lord my Rock and my Redeemer.

Jesus, I’m here to meet with You, won’t You come and meet with me? I want to taste a morsel of Paul’s experience when he said, “For me to live is Christ!” May You be centralised in my life all over again.

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About Joey Asher Tan

Apart from Jesus, I can do nothing; I am absolutely nothing without Christ.

Posted on February 21, 2013, in Extraordinary Mundane, Heart Upon Sleeve, Theocentric Orientation, Top Ten & Other Lists and tagged . Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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