Category Archives: Heart Upon Sleeve
Passion is one of the core values of my life and very often, I spill my heart best through words.
deeper – further, wider, higher.
I have never been so on fire for God as I am now and the difference between this fire and the earlier ones is that it is fueled by His Word and fed by His presence. This is the first holiday that I’m not the last one to wake up, but actually the first – simply because I desired so badly (when I went to bed the night before) to spend time with the Lord in the morning. I have so many insights from the Lord that each journal entry could fill out a week of blog posts! Well, while I continue to discover and apply the truth, and reap its benefits before passing it on to you, I’d like to share the five key thoughts that the Lord has directed me to for this week.
Monday
The depth of my life is determined by how I do His commandments and depart from evil.
Tuesday
The divine cycle of glory is as such – God made all things to display His glory, only to put it under the dominion of Jesus; God’s creation celebrates the centrality of Christ!
Wednesday
Jesus came to redeem and restore us to the original requirements of intimate fellowship with God.
Thursday
When we imitate Christ, we initiate salvation to the unbelievers.
Friday
We can imitate Christ for His proven example helps us to overcome sin and temptation.
I doubt that I would (or even should) do this every week but I think it’s a good way for me to commemorate my commencement of the weekly devotional system that EC shared briefly in IDMC 2010. I truly have gleaned so much insight from God simply by delighting in, devoting to and being disciplined by and to the Word! I spent the weekend reflecting on what I’ve learnt through the week and here’s exactly what I’ve written in my journal.
End-of-week summary
The imitation of Christ (into His likeness) is both foundational (of our faith) and transformational (of our fruits); the deeper you grow – the further you go, the wider you spread, the higher you soar!
God – WOW. You blew my mind this week. I can’t wait to spend time with You in a few hours when I wake up! Thank You for Your grace to help me to love You more than ever, and in such a new-found deeper manner! You were indeed the highlight of my weekend getaway in Batam. And thank You for reminding me of Your glorious presence – through one of the most amazing sunrises I’ve witnessed. I love You, Jesus, deep down in my heart!
top ten new maxims to growing deeper in God.
I have so much on my mind but I only have limited time so I shall cut to the chase. I hope to retain some activity here while I pursue God in a more intentional and intensive manner. Here are some of the new maxims brewing in my head since the conclusion of IDMC 2010. I’ve been thinking about how to translate my desire to growing deeper in God into the various arenas of my life and so to accomplish that, here are some rules I will implement with immediate effect:
- No Holy Book, no Macbook.
- No Word of God, no WordPress.
- No intercession, no interaction.
- No questions, no answers.
- No application of truth, no announcement of truth.
- No depth of life, no breadth of ministry.
- No early shutdown, no early startup.
- No heavenly conversation, no earthly chitchat.
- No communication interference, no connection interruptions.
- No sin, no struggle.
Most of it won’t make sense to you, but it doesn’t need to. I can’t wait to drill these maxims into my life. In the meantime, I’ll try to write as often as I can.
let the people pray; let the revival come.
Let’s intercede for the ministry and for each other as the Spirit leads. These are the same prayer pointers I shared with the GII Shepherds last night; may it serve a guide for you as you war with us in your prayer closet. I sense the Lord leading me (and all of us) into a season of prayer and supplication. We must pray before we pursue our plans.
Let us pray until R-AGE sees a revival. Let us pray until God redeems this generation for His eternity. Let us pray so that we can become more like Jesus. Let us pray until we meet Christ. The more we pray, the less we depend on ourselves to be successful.
Pray, young people, if you want to see growth in yourself and in the ministry… Pray like never before. It is in the presence of God that our lives are changed. Let the people pray, let the revival come, let Your will be done!
Legend:
- NBMNBPBBTSOG – Not by might not by power but by the Spirit of God
- WAITWBNOTW – We are in the world but not of the world
and with a heavy heart…
As the deer pants for streams of water,
so I long for you, O God.I thirst for God, the living God.
When can I come and stand before him?Day and night, I have only tears for food,
while my enemies continually taunt me, saying,
“Where is this God of yours?”My heart is breaking
as I remember how it used to be:
I walked among the crowds of worshipers,
leading a great procession to the house of God,
singing for joy and giving thanks—
it was the sound of a great celebration!Why am I discouraged?
Why so sad?
I will put my hope in God!
I will praise him again—
my Savior and my God!Now I am deeply discouraged,
but I will remember your kindness—
from Mount Hermon, the source of the Jordan,
from the land of Mount Mizar.I hear the tumult of the raging seas
as your waves and surging tides sweep over me.Through each day the LORD pours his unfailing love upon me,
and through each night I sing his songs,
praying to God who gives me life.“O God my rock,” I cry,
“Why have you forsaken me?
Why must I wander in darkness,
oppressed by my enemies?”Their taunts pierce me like a fatal wound.
They scoff, “Where is this God of yours?”Why am I discouraged?
Why so sad?
I will put my hope in God!
I will praise him again—
my Savior and my God!Psalm 42
(New Living Translation)
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Deliver me, O Lord, and quench my thirst.
I long for You, who gives me life and quells my unrest.
How can I trust when I do not understand Your plan?
How can I heal when I cannot identify the pain?
My heart is bruised, broken and berated;
My soul cries out for Your presence, for it is there I find my solace.
I clench my fist to subdue a restless spirit;
There is no rest when anger resides.
Neither words, wealth, nor warmth could ever take Your place of worship.
I hunger for Your touch and Your lamp that lights my path.
The core of my being unfetters a silent scream;
I struggle all day with emptiness and a void that consumes me.
Deliver me, O Lord, and quench my thirst.
I long for You, who gives me life and quells my unrest.
You lead me into unknown valleys and bravely I charge in.
But has darkness become my dwelling place?
I seek help but there is no man who comprehends my agony;
Is that the catalyst of my condition? Therefore, I contemplate.
I embrace powerlessness much to my chagrin;
Where is the way out? No, where is the way in?
You examine my hypocrisy and scrutinise my honour.
Meaningless – all this is absurd if we have no love.
You expose my iniquities and stifle my impulses.
To love is to discipline – show me Your firm hand.
Deliver me, O Lord, and quench my thirst.
I long for You, who gives me life and quells my unrest.
Why is discouragement hung upon my countenance?
I explore its intimidating inhibitions and find no answer still.
My tears won’t arrive – a sentencing without bail;
I fear I may spiral deeper and deeper into a disinterested routine.
Where is the fullness of joy that has been dislocated from my being?
I’ve trudged through worship and prayer, but failed to find an assuage.
I am neither exhausted nor extinguished; I did not envision this condition.
Will this be an insurmountable pinnacle of fantod? I dare not imagine.
Worldly pleasures all forsaken, yet divine delight remains difficult to discover.
My only inclination, my earnest prayer – is to tarry in Your presence.
Deliver me, O Lord, and quench my thirst.
I long for You, who gives me life and quells my unrest.
“Undelivered” | JAT
1st September 2010, 17:49
these are the two compulsory conditions for change.
Watching young people turn over a new leaf never gets old – it’s always a joy to see youths rededicate their lives to Jesus or give their hearts to Jesus for the first time. If we on earth rejoice greatly at a conversion, imagine the ruckus in the heavenlies! Hence I’ve always considered it an immense honour and privilege for me to gain access into a young person’s life, when he or she honestly share his or her problems with me in vulnerability, in hopes that I’d be able to dispense an ounce of godly counsel. It’s actually exciting when I come to think about it, because I know that a transformation is at hand! I could practically hold their faces in my hands, look them in the eye and tell them, from the bottom of my heart, to hang on for they are this close to a breakthrough and a change.
In my observations, I reckon that two conditions must be in place before a person can change (for the better). I speak, of course, in the context of a Christian.
First and foremost, and most crucially, they must have a genuine encounter with the Lord; this is where my life verse, John 15:5, comes alive:
I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing.
Christians must realise that they cannot make it on their own – they must have the grace of God for it empowers us to do what the truth demands. I’ve said this time and again – a lot of Christians try to sort themselves out first, in a bid to clean themselves up, before going to Jesus; don’t put on this unbiblical mindset! On the contrary, we actually need Christ to sort us out first – He is the only one who can make us pure, blameless and presentable before God. The sooner we realise we cannot do it on our own, the sooner we’ll stop depending on ourselves to make it. Therefore, unless a person is rooted and connected in Christ, no inspirational leader or wise mentor would be able to change him for good. This person will at best make temporary changes – out of fear or respect for the person who’s guiding him – but will struggle to keep the change because he’s not fully submitted to the Lordship of Christ. After all, if He’s not Lord of all, He’s not Lord at all.
Secondly, they must be surrounded by a group of people who love and want the best for them. There’s lots of scripture that stress its importance – here are two:
Brothers, if anyone is caught in any transgression, you who are spiritual should restore him in a spirit of gentleness… (Galatians 6:1a)
Therefore, having put away falsehood, let each one of you speak the truth with his neighbor, for we are members one of another. (Ephesians 4:25)
Christians must realise that they cannot make it by themselves. These are the people who will not hesitate to tell you the truth that hurts, rather than the lie that kills; these are your Christian brothers and sisters – those who are in your cell group and ministries – who, I hope, will go out of their way to point out your blind spots; these bona-fide friends aren’t afraid to become unpopular with you or afraid they might, out of their own insecurity, lose their friendship with you; these are the friends – the best-in-your-face-til-the-end-friends – whom you must keep, for they are God-sent people.
At the end of the day, you must not, for even one second, think that you can make it on your own or make it by yourself – get the distinction? You need someone far greater (than you are) working inside you to initiate the change, and you need to surround yourself with loving people who are working around you to insist (or maintain) the change. And yes, it works both ways. In this manner, you will realise that when change does takes place, you will receive none of the credit – which then keeps you humble, for you know that it was purely by the grace of God that saw you through. And you know what? God will then get all the glory for He truly deserves it. (And you and I will get none. YEAH!)




