Yearly Archives: 2010
top ten new maxims to growing deeper in God.
I have so much on my mind but I only have limited time so I shall cut to the chase. I hope to retain some activity here while I pursue God in a more intentional and intensive manner. Here are some of the new maxims brewing in my head since the conclusion of IDMC 2010. I’ve been thinking about how to translate my desire to growing deeper in God into the various arenas of my life and so to accomplish that, here are some rules I will implement with immediate effect:
- No Holy Book, no Macbook.
- No Word of God, no WordPress.
- No intercession, no interaction.
- No questions, no answers.
- No application of truth, no announcement of truth.
- No depth of life, no breadth of ministry.
- No early shutdown, no early startup.
- No heavenly conversation, no earthly chitchat.
- No communication interference, no connection interruptions.
- No sin, no struggle.
Most of it won’t make sense to you, but it doesn’t need to. I can’t wait to drill these maxims into my life. In the meantime, I’ll try to write as often as I can.
IDMC 2010: an intermission.
Probably the most annoying GIF in the world. (Source: Very Demotivational)
I’m halfway through my second IDMC and I’ve learned many new lessons as well as have been reminded of some old lessons. IDMC will always be a special conference for me because it was on the second night (that’s tonight!) that I made my decision to step into full-time ministry. What’s inspired me most so far though, isn’t what EC has been teaching but what he’s been living. Through EC’s example, I’m convinced that one of the top priorities of a preacher is to spend an abundance of time dwelling and delighting in the Word of God. I echo his sentiments in my heart for I think that’ll be one of the best things a pastor could do for his congregation. It’s time for me to dig even deeper into the Holy Bible!
Once my thoughts are organised in the right places, I’d be better placed to write something worth reading. For now, I’m excited that a good number of youth leaders in Grace AG has signed up for IDMC 2011 – the numbers stand at 19 at last count but I’m expecting the final number to swell to 25 when I register everyone tomorrow morning. On a side note, I’ve been impressed by the Covenanters’ commitment to their own conference – it’s obvious that they own it and are tremendously proud of IDMC; you could see this pride hung on the faces of all the volunteers – well, if I was one of them, I’d be proud too. It’s been a thoroughly pleasing experience for me as a delegate to be treated to their genuine hospitality. Needless to say, this is something that I’d want R-AGE youths to pick up – be it during Rhema Conferences, events, services or cells. Covenanters make me want to return to their church because of how welcoming they are – can our guests say the same thing about us? I have confidence that we will attain an excellent standard of hosting with the right training.
In the meantime, I hope you haven’t spent too much time looking at this GIF. It’s been rolling ever since I started composing this post and it still hasn’t ended. Epic GIF, no less. I couldn’t help but to post it. For now, I look forward to the third installment of IDMC 2010.
let the people pray; let the revival come.
Let’s intercede for the ministry and for each other as the Spirit leads. These are the same prayer pointers I shared with the GII Shepherds last night; may it serve a guide for you as you war with us in your prayer closet. I sense the Lord leading me (and all of us) into a season of prayer and supplication. We must pray before we pursue our plans.
Let us pray until R-AGE sees a revival. Let us pray until God redeems this generation for His eternity. Let us pray so that we can become more like Jesus. Let us pray until we meet Christ. The more we pray, the less we depend on ourselves to be successful.
Pray, young people, if you want to see growth in yourself and in the ministry… Pray like never before. It is in the presence of God that our lives are changed. Let the people pray, let the revival come, let Your will be done!
Legend:
- NBMNBPBBTSOG – Not by might not by power but by the Spirit of God
- WAITWBNOTW – We are in the world but not of the world
and with a heavy heart…
As the deer pants for streams of water,
so I long for you, O God.I thirst for God, the living God.
When can I come and stand before him?Day and night, I have only tears for food,
while my enemies continually taunt me, saying,
“Where is this God of yours?”My heart is breaking
as I remember how it used to be:
I walked among the crowds of worshipers,
leading a great procession to the house of God,
singing for joy and giving thanks—
it was the sound of a great celebration!Why am I discouraged?
Why so sad?
I will put my hope in God!
I will praise him again—
my Savior and my God!Now I am deeply discouraged,
but I will remember your kindness—
from Mount Hermon, the source of the Jordan,
from the land of Mount Mizar.I hear the tumult of the raging seas
as your waves and surging tides sweep over me.Through each day the LORD pours his unfailing love upon me,
and through each night I sing his songs,
praying to God who gives me life.“O God my rock,” I cry,
“Why have you forsaken me?
Why must I wander in darkness,
oppressed by my enemies?”Their taunts pierce me like a fatal wound.
They scoff, “Where is this God of yours?”Why am I discouraged?
Why so sad?
I will put my hope in God!
I will praise him again—
my Savior and my God!Psalm 42
(New Living Translation)
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Deliver me, O Lord, and quench my thirst.
I long for You, who gives me life and quells my unrest.
How can I trust when I do not understand Your plan?
How can I heal when I cannot identify the pain?
My heart is bruised, broken and berated;
My soul cries out for Your presence, for it is there I find my solace.
I clench my fist to subdue a restless spirit;
There is no rest when anger resides.
Neither words, wealth, nor warmth could ever take Your place of worship.
I hunger for Your touch and Your lamp that lights my path.
The core of my being unfetters a silent scream;
I struggle all day with emptiness and a void that consumes me.
Deliver me, O Lord, and quench my thirst.
I long for You, who gives me life and quells my unrest.
You lead me into unknown valleys and bravely I charge in.
But has darkness become my dwelling place?
I seek help but there is no man who comprehends my agony;
Is that the catalyst of my condition? Therefore, I contemplate.
I embrace powerlessness much to my chagrin;
Where is the way out? No, where is the way in?
You examine my hypocrisy and scrutinise my honour.
Meaningless – all this is absurd if we have no love.
You expose my iniquities and stifle my impulses.
To love is to discipline – show me Your firm hand.
Deliver me, O Lord, and quench my thirst.
I long for You, who gives me life and quells my unrest.
Why is discouragement hung upon my countenance?
I explore its intimidating inhibitions and find no answer still.
My tears won’t arrive – a sentencing without bail;
I fear I may spiral deeper and deeper into a disinterested routine.
Where is the fullness of joy that has been dislocated from my being?
I’ve trudged through worship and prayer, but failed to find an assuage.
I am neither exhausted nor extinguished; I did not envision this condition.
Will this be an insurmountable pinnacle of fantod? I dare not imagine.
Worldly pleasures all forsaken, yet divine delight remains difficult to discover.
My only inclination, my earnest prayer – is to tarry in Your presence.
Deliver me, O Lord, and quench my thirst.
I long for You, who gives me life and quells my unrest.
“Undelivered” | JAT
1st September 2010, 17:49
a five-year prequel in-the-making.
I joined the intercessors at the weekly Prayer Room Ministry this evening and I was tremendously blessed by the brothers and sisters who were present. The pastoral staff are rostered to attend this time of prayer and it was my turn tonight – so I went there with a heart to minister to these intercessors. However, it was I who left the prayer room feeling absolutely ministered to. Anointing flowed freely through the powerful time of prayer and I take comfort knowing that Grace AG has a team of faithful intercessors. I thank God for them and I am inspired to lead our weekly PUSH to a whole ‘nother level.
At the end of the hour-long session, they prayed for me and a number of them released words of accuracy and prophecy into my life. For instance, I know God has called me into this season of youth ministry to lead, preach and mentor – And I kept hearing the intercessors, most of whom I did not know before tonight, pray these exact few words over me. It was like when these words were verbalised, it amplified in my head – so imagine the throbbing volume in my mind! I must say that it was an extremely faith-building session tonight to say the least; it was as if God was reassuring me of the specific things I needed to do during this time of service.
But the event that takes the cake – and the highlight of my evening – was when the chief intercessor closed in prayer. As she closed, she released scripture to me, which practically got me grinning from ear to ear. I couldn’t recall which version she used, so I’ll just show four different versions of Deuteronomy 33:24-25.
New International Version – About Asher he said: “Most blessed of sons is Asher; let him be favored by his brothers, and let him bathe his feet in oil. The bolts of your gates will be iron and bronze, and your strength will equal your days.”
New Living Translation – Moses said this about the tribe of Asher: “May Asher be blessed above other sons; may he be esteemed by his brothers; may he bathe his feet in olive oil. May the bolts of your gates be of iron and bronze; may you be secure all your days.”
English Standard Version – And of Asher he said, “Most blessed of sons be Asher; let him be the favorite of his brothers, and let him dip his foot in oil. Your bars shall be iron and bronze, and as your days, so shall your strength be.”
New American Standard Bible – Of Asher he said, “More blessed than sons is Asher; May he be favored by his brothers, And may he dip his foot in oil. Your locks will be iron and bronze, And according to your days, so will your leisurely walk be.”
Now, get this – I checked with her if she knew my baptism name. She said she only knew that I was “Joey A. Tan” – according to the name on the roster given to her. She thought it was a “happening” thing to do to have that “A.” in my name. I told her that I chose to be baptised as “Asher” in 2005 because of its befitting meaning – blessed, joyful and happy – I felt these adjectives truly represented my personality, especially “joyful and happy”.
The funny thing is, I’ve always skimmed through the word “blessed” and gave its significance little thought; maybe it was because it was such a common word. But tonight, I found new insights into my baptism name from a passage of scripture that I’ve never read before – even through my meticulous decision-making process of selecting a baptism name!
She was stunned and awed by the “coincidence”. I mean, of all names – there were 12 tribes of Israel! – she chose Asher! And from an obscure book like Deuteronomy – how often do you get people referring to Deuteronomy!? And she didn’t know me or my baptism name previously! Seriously, WHAT WERE THE CHANCES of that happening!?
I was extremely humbled by what the Holy Spirit was doing in my life tonight. So there I was, with my eyes shut, head bowed, sporting an ear-to-ear grin and whispering, “I love You, Lord” (almost instinctively and uncontrollably) again and again until she said finally said, “Amen”. Excuse me everybody, but WOW! – tonight was truly an extremely special and anointed experience which I will remember for the rest of my life each time I see my baptism name.
Tonight’s “coincidence” was five years in-the-making; I don’t know if you get this or if it even makes any sense at all, but it’s like the Lord omnipresently KNEW in 2010, that I would select “Asher” for myself way back in 2005. A jaw-dropping episode indeed – I’m stunned, baffled, astonished, amazed and absolutely dumbfounded. Thank You, dear Lord – Your grace is enough for me!
For now, I will be meditating upon those two seemingly obscure verses. I’m buzzing with anointed excitement.




